Last night i had a really awful dream that is bothering me still.
I was at church and we had the music part and that was all good. I was asked to speak this Sunday and when i got up to speak, and try to settle everyone [the chatters], i couldn't get anyone to pay attention for ages. Then when they finally settled down, i started to talk about my weight loss journey - the trials and triumphs of it so far this year. But no-one was paying attention to me. In fact, they were all turning their heads the other way! Some guys even started watching a footy game on a big screen. Eventually everyone was watching the game and cheering on their teams. I tried 3 or 4 times to hold the congregations attention and begin talking, to no avail. After the last attempt, they actually had their backs to me. I ended up in tears and collecting my stuff and walking out.

Just the thought of my church family turning their back on me for any reason is a horrible thing! I want to cry now just thinking about it O_O